So here I am! It's 2011 and I am now 36 yrs old. I have thought about doing a blog many times but thought who would read it? What if no one reads it? But then on my way home today I got to thinking, who cares?! A blog is really a place to journal. Something I have always wanted to do but never follow through on because writing with a pen just isn't for me. I am much more comfortable with the computer. So this is where all those thoughts that run through my head that I wish I could share with someone can now go. And if you want to read them GREAT! And if not, well then that's okay too!
You may be wondering why I titled my blog 'Imperfectly Perfect'. One thing I will share with you right off the bat is that I am one of the most imperfect people you will meet. I am a Christ follower who has been blessed beyond measure with God's grace and mercy daily. Sometimes hourly, and sometime more frequently than that!
I used to suffer from self-esteem issues which were a result of many things in my life. However, as my relationship with Christ has evolved I have come to know that He has made us in His image and in that we are perfect! But, and yes I said but! But, we will never measure up to His complete perfection. There is and will always be something missing. He has given us free will which leads us to make so many choices/mistakes if you will that ultimately bring us to cry out and depend on Him for His grace, mercy, forgiveness and love! Without Him and all that He has to offer us we are not complete! We are not whole.
So I am 'imperfectly perfect'. I am just right, just the way that I am. I know that it is okay to make mistakes, that it is okay not to be a beauty queen, to mess up as a parent sometimes, to not be a perfect christian, etc. etc. etc. As long as I am always seeking Christ and learning God's will for my life, I am okay with being imperfect. That is what He wants. He wants me to see that I need Him!
So I am living the second half of my life if you will, with more confidence. I hope that I live to be older than 72, but if I don't I hope that however long I have left on earth I live it to the fullest. So to start here are my goals for 2011. Maybe by posting them I will hold myself more accountable. Who knows?
1. Run the 1/2 marathon I did not get to do last year!
2. Complete the Survivor Mud Run on June 18th (more on this in future posts)
3. Read the entire bible this year
4. Stay on track to pay off our credit card debt
5. Have more date nights with my husband
6. Tithe regularly to my church
These are not in any order and they are not the only goals I have but they are important ones to me. Ones I hope to look back on and say YES I did those things!
I hope not to take myself so seriously and to let loose a little more. Enjoy life and try new things more often. And honestly I already did that by signing up for #2 on my list. Look it up! Just put Survivor Mud Run, Seattle in your browser. I have less than 6 months to train. Think I'm crazy? Maybe I am. But I'll never know if I don't try and what kid inside of us wouldn't want to play in mud? :)
